sometimes one makes a decision and wonders if it's all worthwhile. sometimes it takes a long time to find out, sometimes you never get to find it out, sometimes you learn that maybe whatever decisions you made you actually dont care about it anymore after some time while sometimes, you get paid handsomely for it.
so while i may have made a few decisions which people do not agree with but to hell with it. it's my decision not theirs. if they cant be happy for me then so be it. i've got better things to worry about than what others think or feel. while it may not always be about me but i think the decisions i've made so far are really just about me and i do not think i owe anyone any explanation or warrant any smart ass comments at all. think about it, i may not have made the right decision but i sure have been kind to you and your decisions. so just give me a break.
i find myself careful with what i say to people these days. it's easy to see who really is concern about you and what you've been up to and those who just wants to know the down side of things. ask smarter questions next time and dont think for a minute there i do not know what you're driving at or what you're hoping for. i dont need you to tell me 'i told u so.' did you think for a minute there that it didn't cross my mind when i made that decision? of cos it did but i want it this way and i will live with it. worry not, i will not bore you with the bad details if any.
on another note, i think i am actually really happier these days. minus a small boo boo this weekend, but all's been good. really good. almost hard to believe. while i stay firm with the decisions i've made and be it good or bad, i'm staying with it. actually, i don't really care about the outcome of it because i prefer to live the moment than make big plans and force things to happen. it really does not work that way. so while i live in this happy moment, i hope everyone out there is also very happy with the decisions they have made and i hope everyone's decisions will be worth it :)
